REDEFINE LIFE

I try to understand life.
It's sort of a mental necessity ... practiced ...more for my
survival.
For me ... as a human being.
Being like that ... not necessarily from yesterday ... but for sure tomorrow ... the day after tomorrow ... 1 or even 10 years from now ... i'll be into the same confusion.
My books ... all of them ... are a collection of thousands of thoughts ... explained repeatedly ... abstractly ... and
annoyingly.
Trying to induce the idea ... that all it's actually in vain.
Somehow ... being obvious ... Aha.
Even ... all those tendencies of self therapy.
Analysing.
Defining.
Continuously trying to redefine ... something that cannot be redefined.
And ... not necessarily because it's impossible ... but because it's a nonsense even to think about it.But ... i still do it.
Still trying.
Still claiming that i want ... and that i can.
Even screaming ... that it's my fundamental right.
Of course ... it's illusory ... all what i am doing.
Childish.
Pathetically.
But being addicted of doing it ... i just write one book after another.
Already by years.
So ... come and read my thoughts.
Join ... the nonsense i am overwhelmed of.
You'll enjoy it.
We'll laugh a lot together ... understanding how idiots we
are.