I was trying to save myself. Not be a hero. But she left me no choice.
My friends call me Jenks. My enemies call me Roman Mathers. And me? Right now, I call myself a monster.
Some people would call me a hero. A protector. But I know better.
I might be an undercover cop, but I’m no saint.
I’ve done bad things. And I’ll keep doing them until I put my enemies behind bars, or they put me in a body bag.
That was my plan. Burn their whole world to the ground or die trying. Until her. Livvie Brooks. She was glitz and glamour. Not gang-life, guns, blood and broken bones. She was supposed to be disgusted by the monsters. Not attracted to one of them. But she didn’t listen. She stepped out of the shadows, blew up my life, and then she saved it. Saved me. When she should have been saving herself. From me. My life. All of it.
She chose to save me.
But there was a cost.
Isn’t there always?
But who was going to pay? Her? Or me?
Life or death. For a woman I’ve only known a day. One day.
One day, one second, one moment in time can change your life.
It sure as hell changed mine.
He told me to do anything and everything to save myself. I would do and endure anything and everything to save him.
They say life can change in an instant.
One second, one moment, one breath, one heartbeat. One look.
It happened to me. The moment my eyes locked onto him that was it.
He needed saving. And my life needed purpose.
I didn’t know what stepping out of the shadows would mean for me. The threat to my life. The changing of it forever. I stepped out of the shadows. And into the pit of hell.
Knowing what I know now I still would’ve done it anyway. Because it was him. I wouldn’t have done anything different. I would still want to be right here with him.
He calls himself a monster. Because of what he’s done. What he still has to do. But all I see is Matt Jenks. And that might be my downfall. I stepped into his life and irrevocably changed my own. I didn’t know it then. But I know it now.
It’s only been a few days and I know I’ll never be the same again.
I saved him.
But will he save me?
Truth or lies.
Good or evil.
Life or death.
Giving up … or going all in?
We’ll just have to wait and see.