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Publisher Description

~Lambda Literary Award finalist for the best LGBT YA novel of 2018~

A raw, powerful, but ultimately uplifting debut novel perfect for fans of Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe from debut author Angelo Surmelis.

Seventeen-year-old Evan Panos doesn’t know where he fits in. His strict immigrant Greek mother refuses to see him as anything but a disappointment. His quiet, workaholic father is a staunch believer in avoiding any kind of conflict. And his best friend, Henry, has somehow become distractingly attractive over the summer.

Tired, isolated, scared—Evan finds that his only escape is to draw in an abandoned monastery that feels as lonely as he is. And yes, he kissed one guy over the summer. But it’s Henry who’s now proving to be irresistible. Henry, who suddenly seems interested in being more than friends. And it’s Henry who makes him believe that he deserves more than his mother’s harsh words and terrifying abuse.

But as things with Henry heat up, and his mother’s abuse escalates, Evan has to decide how to find his voice in a world where he has survived so long by being silent.

This is a powerful and revelatory coming-of-age novel based on the author’s own childhood, about a boy who learns to step into his light.

Young Adult
January 30
Balzer + Bray
Eighth Grade

Customer Reviews

El Quijano ,

One of the best books I’ve ever read

Wow. I have re-read this book quite a few times since I bought it and it is absolutely stunning. It’s an absolutely beautiful story and is amazingly written. Highly recommend!

anastasia_beaverhausen+ ,

Wow… an amazing book that stays with you & that you learn from

This is one of - if not the BEST book I have ever read... it draws you in with characters you want to know... but then keeps you on your toes as you see them tackle some hard subjects... including first love. It is a book that stays with you and that you learn from - I know I did...

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