The Light Within My Darkness

In her memoir, Marcia Orcutt describes what was unspeakable, unbearable, and unthinkable at the time. She provides a glimpse of how sexual abuse affected her emotionally, cognitively, physically, socially, and spiritually for many years without her knowing it. Her depression was not what it appeared to be at first. When repressed memories of abuse returned after nine very long and painful years of depression, her healing began. Her depression was a symptom of her Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) which was triggered by her daughter's birth and her older daughter's age (2) at the time. Her PTSD is an emotional illness caused by the abuse she suffered.

Through the darkness and much continuing and often painful therapeutic work which continues to the present (2021), Marcia has also encountered God's immense love for her, which is The Truth. This Truth has enabled her to continue to journey and to heal. God gives her the courage to share this extremely sensitive, complex, dark, but real issue with others. Walking in the light of God's love with others who care has unveiled her shame and revealed her true identity as a child of God.