This Is What You Wanted

"Hello, sweetness..."

From the outside, Amanda Keefe has it together. She is a shy but earnest adjunct instructor at a small state college in western Michigan dealing with a condescending boss and the relentless university system. But the ravages of childhood trauma have scarred her body inside and out, and she finds no safety in her own home that she shares with her stern, Catholic parents and resentful, secretive brother. To deal with her stress, she has two addictions—one for pleasure, and one for pain. Both are different in execution, but similar in their end goal.

Amanda controls her meticulous regimen without incident until the night she decides to be more adventurous and invites another broken soul into her world. Then she has to fight both new and old demons and reckon with her traumatic past.