How can you talk about something that you can't remember?
Before the ski trip, Cassidy "Sid" Murphy was a cheerleader (on the bottom of the pyramid, but still...) and a straight-A student, with two of the best friends a girl could ask for.
When Sid finds herself on a ski lift with hunky local college guy, Dax Windsor, she's thrilled. "Come to a party with me," he tells her, but Dax isn't what he seems. He takes everything from Sid-including a lock of her perfect red curls-and she can't remember any of it.
After the ski trip, Sid is an insomniac and an obsessive late-night runner, unable to relate to her old friends.
Caught in a downward spiral, Sid drops her college prep classes and takes up residence in the A/V room with only Corey "The Living Stoner" Livingston for company. But as she gets to know Corey--slacker, baker, total dreamboat--Sid finds someone who truly makes her happy. Now, if only she could shake the nightmares, everything would be perfect...
Witty and poignant, Colleen Clayton's debut is a stunning story of moving on after the unthinkable happens.
Sixteen-year-old Sid Murphy has always been self-conscious about her weight and figure, so when a handsome older guy flirts with her during a weekend school ski trip, a smitten Sid sneaks out to meet him at a party. But there is no party: the man drugs and rapes Sid, leaving her unable to remember the exact details of what happened or tell anyone about it. Sid tries to move on, but she develops insomnia and an eating disorder, and she loses her two closest friends as well as her spot on the cheerleading squad in the aftermath. Debut author Clayton doesn't simplify Sid or her emotions, showing the deep scars left by the rape, her understandable yet self-destructive reactions, and her growing joy at her unexpected relationship with Corey, "the biggest stoner at Lakewood High," who has secrets of his own. Clayton throws perhaps a few too many obstacles at Sid (on top of everything else, she's being bullied by a popular cheerleader), but readers should still find this story painfully realistic yet hopeful. Ages 15 up.
all i can say is WOW
this was an amazing book i felt like i was right along side sid. Tugged my heart strings was one of the best books i have ever read and im a book freak and dont say that about much books! A MUST READ!!!