What Was I Thinking?
What is the most appropriate question to ask a thinker? Is it not: “What were you thinking?” (the title of one of my previous books). What is a common response to a thinker’s answer to that question? Is it not: “What were you thinking?”—an exclamation echoed at times by his or her own “What was I thinking?” Yes, it is not only (rare) others who ask a thinker, “What were you thinking?”; it is also the thinker who asks himself or herself, “What was I thinking?” (someone who never asks himself or herself this question is not a thinker). Why would a thinker ask himself or herself this question? He or she could ask it after undergoing memory loss as a result of attempting to think another’s/others’ thought-provoking trauma or something thought-provoking that ends up, through a series of associations, linking with a personal trauma; or coming up with an ostensibly counterintuitive rigorous concept that takes him or her aback, especially in moments of weakness, when he or she resumes being exoterically all too human—what was I thinking when I considered that the visionary is faceless; that Oedipus gave ground on his desire; that Jesus was crucified not in Jerusalem circa 30 but in Baghdad in 922; that the resurrected brother of Mary and Martha resurrected God; et cetera?