If This Gets Out
"If This Gets Out is an absolute showstopper! Equal parts edgy and adorable, this bright, joyful book has everything I look for in a queer YA romance." - Phil Stamper, bestselling author of The Gravity of Us
One of the world's biggest boy bands. A secret love. What happens if the world finds out? A queer YA boy band romance from Sophie Gonzales and Cale Dietrich, perfect for fans of Only Mostly Devastated and What If It's Us.
Eighteen-year-olds Ruben Montez and Zach Knight are two members of the boy-band Saturday, one of the biggest acts in America. Along with their bandmates, Angel Phan and Jon Braxton, the four are teen heartbreakers in front of the cameras and best friends backstage. But privately, cracks are starting to form: their once-easy rapport is straining under the pressures of fame, and Ruben confides in Zach that he's feeling smothered by management's pressure to stay in the closet.
On a whirlwind tour through Europe, with both an unrelenting schedule and minimal supervision, Ruben and Zach come to rely on each other more and more, and their already close friendship evolves into a romance. But when they decide they're ready to tell their fans and live freely, Zach and Ruben start to truly realize that they will never have the support of their management. How can they hold tight to each other when the whole world seems to want to come between them?
"Deftly explores the dark side of fame and the giddy thrill of first - and forbidden - love." - Mackenzi Lee, New York Times bestselling author
"A sweet and swoon-worthy romance. Zach and Ruben are a pitch-perfect duet!" - Caleb Roehrig, author of Last Seen Leaving
"Dazzles . . . with a narrative of queer boy-bandmates who wrestle with newfound fame, and newfound feelings for each other. Readers will fall in love." - Adam Sass, author of Surrender Your Sons
"Blends the ache and the beauty of coming out under the lights of celebrity with the ways in which queer love is told to stay hidden, even when it's the only thing keeping the music going." - L.C. Rosen, author of Camp
For the four members of popular boy band Saturday, life is one big performance: their management company controls their actions onstage and off, and they're tired of the grind of touring. But during their first sold-out European tour, 18-year-old Ruben Montez, who's Spanish American, and Zach Knight, who's white, grow even closer. While traveling with bandmates Angel Phan, who's cued as of Asian descent, and biracial (Black/white) Jon Braxton, whose father runs the band's label, Ruben and Zach bond over their frustrations. The management company has told Ruben to hold off on coming out publicly, and aspiring songwriter Zach is told that his work doesn't jibe with the band's pop sound. When Ruben and Zach's friendship takes a turn toward romance, they contemplate what they should be expected to give up for their success. Through the alternating voices of introspective Ruben and people pleaser Zach, Gonzales (Only Mostly Devastated) and Dietrich (The Friend Scheme) craft a believable novel filled with backstage detail and flawed characters trying to figure out who they are under the spotlight's glare. Ages 13 up. Agent (for Gonzales and Dietrich): Moe Ferrara, BookEnds Literary.