I am not okay.
Fifteen months ago, my life was turned upside down when the plane I was piloting went down. Injured and trapped in the wreckage, I had to watch my fiancée die a painfully slow death, which is something that can really mess with your head.
Since that day, I’ve had little desire to do much of anything. Except play hockey, that is. Because that is the one place where the bad memories are banished and I can escape my pain.
But off the ice, I’m spiraling out of control. Losing the grip on my life and putting myself and my career in danger. Now, thanks to a string of bad decisions, I’ve been ordered to complete therapy in order to stay on the team.
The problem? Nora Wayne, my beautiful and somewhat unconventional therapist. I can’t buy into the brand of happy clappy crap this woman is feeding me. What could she possibly understand about the type of loss that I’ve suffered? How does she know anything about finding happiness after losing the most important person in your life?
Turns out, I’ve got a lot to learn, and she’s just the person I need to break through those walls I’ve erected.
I am not okay.
But for the first time in a long time, I know that I will be.
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I am sorry that I can't give more than 5 stars!!!! Tacker's story will show you the turmoil and sadness surrounding him after the loss of his future wife in a plane crash he is feeling responsible for. This picks up where we were left off and the team management will throw the gambit and force Tacker into mandatory therapy, a stiff fine and no alcohol. After considering his options, Tacker will try to get better. Dominick sends him to a ranch where the therapy is a little unorthodox but works. The therapist Nora treats her patients with some regular therapy as well as equine therapy. Tacker will slowly start to heal and his survivor guilt starts fading until he is happy. The story will take you through his journey of healing and opening himself to happiness and love. A beautiful story of hope and love. I volunteered to review this story. I can't wait to read Dominick and Willows story next!
I waited. Really honestly waited for something to grab me and drag me into the story...it just never came. For Sawyer, compared to her other offerings this was flat. There was zero, zero lust or chemistry between these two. Tacker is ordered to counselling to keep his job...you do not find out anything earth shattering about the “horrific plane crash” other than pages and pages if him living like MJ is still alive while being drawn to Nora. Nora the counsellor whom he fires so he can date. Boring is exciting compared to these two dating. The most exciting part was Raul having a heart attack. No humor, no angst and really with his trauma you could have went way harder with his flashbacks or real feelings watching MJ die. He never tells us. Now I will not be automatically preordering so will wait for Dominic to come out first !! If it is not finished yet...kick it up a few or 10 notches cause Dominic is a player. A dirty boy and an alpha...do not water him down. Explode him onto those pages. Don’t let this great series end on a lackluster note.
4.5 stars-emotional, inviting, engaging
4.5 stars- TACKER is the fifth instalment in Sawyer Bennett’s contemporary, adult ARIZONA VENGEANCE hockey romance series focusing on the Arizona Vengeance hockey team. This is team captain Tacker Hall, and thirty-two year old, counsellor Nora Wayne’s story line. TACKER can be read as a stand alone without any difficulty but I recommend reading the series in order as Tacker’s story slowly develops throughout the series.
NOTE: Some of the events in TACKER cross over with, and run parallel to some of the events in book four DAX.
Told from dual first person perspectives (Tacker and Nora) TACKER follows the building but forbidden relationship between Arizona Vengeance team captain Tacker Hall, and counsellor Nora Wayne. Fifteen months earlier Tacker Hall’s fiancé was killed in a plane crash, a plane in which Tacker was the pilot. Fast forward to present day wherein Tacker’s life is spiralling out of control, a spiral of which he may never recover. Forced into mandatory counselling or consider himself no longer a member of the team Tacker Hall comes face to face with his future in the guise of Nora Wayne, a counsellor who owns and runs a healing ranch where human and horses learn to get along. What ensues is the building but forbidden relationship between Nora and Tacker as our couple learn to let go of the past, a past that is equally traumatic for our story line heroine.
Tacker Hall suffers with the remorse of survivor’s guilt, and the ongoing belief he was responsible for the death of his beloved fiance. Unable to let go, Tacker’s remorse continues to affect his life both on and off of the ice, so much so that Tacker considers ending it all. Meeting Nora Wayne sparks something deep within our story line hero something he hasn’t felt for a very long time. Nora Wayne knows the heart break of survivor’s remorse more so than anyone could have imagined but our heroine uses her experience to empathize with those who are struggling with their own hurt and unimaginable shame. Meeting Tacker Hall pulls Nora out of her comfort zone, allowing her to consider a future with the man with whom she will fall in love.
The relationship between Tacker and Nora is one of immediate attraction but Nora was hired by the Arizona Vengeance in an effort to pull Tacker out of his depression otherwise Tacker’s career was on the blocks. Nora knows to cross the line with Tacker could mean professional misconduct but Tacker takes the extra step in an effort to protect Nora from their palpable sexual attraction. The $ex scenes are passionate without the use of over the top, sexually graphic language and text.
We are reintroduced to the teammates, significant and staff of the Arizona Vengeance: Bishop and Brooke, Erik and Blue, Legend and Pepper, Dax and Regan Coach Claude, and team owner Dominik Carlson, newest team member and Tacker’s best friend Aaron Wylde, as well as ranch hand Raul Vargas. The team dynamic is changing with the influx of significant others, a dynamic that brings the teammates closer together.
TACKER is a story of heartache, grief, tragedy and recovery; second chances and letting go. The premise is emotional, inviting and engaging; the characters are broken, colorful, energetic but on the mend; the romance is seductive and intimate. TACKER is a raw and gritty look at the power of guilt, and the steps to bring grievers back into the light.