Getting Lost
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- $20.99
Publisher Description
WINNER OF THE 2022 NOBEL PRIZE IN LITERATURE
The diary of one of France’s most important, award-winning writers during the year she had a passionate and secret love affair with a Russian diplomat
Getting Lost is the diary Annie Ernaux kept during the year and a half she had a secret love affair with a younger, married man, a Russian diplomat. Her novel, Simple Passion, was based on this affair, but here her writing is immediate, unfiltered.
In these diaries it is 1989 and Annie is divorced with two grown sons, living outside of Paris and nearing fifty. Her lover escapes the city to see her there and Ernaux seems to survive only in expectation of these encounters, saying “his desire for me is the only thing I can be sure of.” She cannot write, she trudges distractedly through her various other commitments in the world, she awaits his next call; she lives only to feel desire and for the next rendezvous. When he is gone and the desire has faded, she feels that she is a step closer to death.
Lauded for her spare prose, Ernaux here removes all artifice, her writing pared down to its most naked and vulnerable. Getting Lost is as strong a book as any that she has written, a haunting, desperate view of strong and successful woman who seduces a man only to lose herself in love and desire.
PUBLISHERS WEEKLY
In this entrancing work, French writer Ernaux (The Years) relives the passionate yet devastating memories of a whirlwind affair through her own diary entries. From November 1989 to April 1990, when she was a writer and teacher living in Paris, Ernaux became besotted with a married Russian diplomat at the Soviet embassy. Set against the political, social, and literary events that defined the parameters of their relationship, Ernaux's narrative traces her secret love affair with "Mr. S," a man 13 years her junior, as she recalls falling under S's narcissistic hold ("a lovely hell") and the "state of nameless terror" she endures between his phone calls and brief visits. Their affair revives old and painful memories that threaten her self-worth: an abortion in 1964, a failed marriage, and recurring dreams of her mother's death. Ernaux's writing is astonishingly candid as she illustrates the ways loss, heartache, and love intersect with her craft as a writer: "I am consumed with desire.... I want perfection in love, as I believe I attained a kind of perfection in writing with A Woman's Story. That can only happen through giving, while throwing all caution to the wind. I'm already well on my way." Fans will relish every scintillating detail.
